I've spilled the beans...

There Michelle, it is done, I have told them. But unfortunately it wasn't the best time I think to break it out. Happened while mom and I were having another argument and it came out after a lot of thinking and planning...but still unexpected. I told mom half of it. The rest I didn't feel like telling, that part they don't need to know. But it's out now. I suppose they'll be watching over my shoulder for the rest of my life now. Maybe I should have told them that forgiveness had been earned for that bastard and I don't really care about that anymore. Nothing more than a distinctive memory. A distinctive memory that happened to shape most of my life.

Mom was a little defensive. I suppose I felt that the blame was still being put on me for being that child that "loved to play and always broke the rules". It wasn't entirely my fault. It was also theirs for making me feel like I couldn't tell them. It was being freaking 5 years old, no one would take me seriously, no?

I suppose she is off right now telling dad everything. Joy. Aren't we all going to be happy now?

Now don't take this wrong. I'm not saying that you've just probably made my parents want to cut me off from nan ren for the rest of my life (which is what they'll probably do). I'm thanking you for helping me get to this point to tell them. You're right, it does feel a bit better. As for my parents doing the above, I'll fight it of course, I know better now, don't you think? I've learned enough from life. :-P

So thanks, really. Love you.

Linda